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2005-02-26T21:47:24Z

Man I can't believe I'm updating this. It's been awhile. But I have some things I need to get off my chest and I don't wanna type it in myspace. Anyway I found out my "best friend" here has been lying to me. And it's because she knows I'm going to think she is a slut. Which she is totally acting like one. This guy that she is dating, I thought broke up with his ex-girlfriend along time ago. And turns out No, She is the reason they broke up, cause the ex caught her and this guy fucking. Ok, then there is a whole bunch of other nasty shite that she lied to me about and I'm getting angry so I don't wanna type it. Oh wait. yeah one last thing that bothered the hell out of me. We just met these guys a couple of weeks ago. They are awesome, but she told be last week that she hadn't slept with anybody. And turns out they have been fucking for awhile. Now I met the ex and she is awesome. And is handling this very well. Now Katie is pissed because she wants to get back with him, which is totally understanable, since they had known eachother so long. And Katie is calling her a bitch and such. I just shook my head, and said I don't know her well enough to make any judgments about her and that just because she still like this guy that doesn't make her a bitch. If anything the ex should be calling her a bitch. So I was not happy last night, but then ended up having a pretty good time. Alright well this is all. Sorry for my anger
Adria

hmmm...

2005-02-06T18:48:57Z

I just read something that made me sad. Now I can't stop thinking my stupid little thoughts.
AHHHHHHHHHH!

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-27T18:59:00

2005-01-28T01:07:44Z

So this week has been a little hectic, but I have to get used to it cause it will be like that until the end of the year or until a couple of my classes end in march. I don't think my schedual will slow down then, but hopefully. Mom couldn't come last weekend because of the snow, so she is coming tomorrow night. We are going to go shopping and such. FUn!! My grandparent come back on Tuesday which means that I will have to back to My aunts. JOY. I kinda enjoyed this freedom and not having to be on my toes constantly. I didn't sell my saddle last weekend. I was sad.
Went to Swisher, which is an all ages bar thing, this weekend. It was ok, it was fun to finally be able to hang out with friends outside of school. Normally on the weekend I just sleep, but I finally was awake enough to have a little fun. Oh also no one can ever get a hold of me cause I don't have and fucking cell phone, and my father wont make up his mind about what he wants to do. god. Well I've got some home work.
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-20T20:36:00

2005-01-21T02:46:21Z

Nobody really writes in this thing anymore. We all have a my space thing now. Leann~ you need to get a my space thing. It's good, I think I haven't had much time to do anything with it. Anyway go to myspace.com and make one.
So yesterday I had classes starting at 6:30am to 5pm, and no break between any of them. But the time we were finishing up I couldn't keep my eyes open. I was soooooo hungry as well. So this is how it went.
6:30 to 7:30am Drill team
8am to 10am advanced english (riding)
10am to 12 Facilities maintence
12-1 bareback
1- 2 Workplace communications
2-3 Oral Communications
3-5 Computer applications

And cooling off a horse to get another one def takes more the 10 mins. So that really sucks. Anyway enough bitching. My mom is hopefully coming this weekend. So that sould be fun then on sunday I have to work at the tack swap meet at school. yeay (she says sarcastically) anyway this is all I guess.
Adria

...

2005-01-18T03:39:26Z

I haven't posted in this thing for a while. I've been really busy. School is hectic. I have 6 classes on mon, 5 on tues, 7 on wed, 1 on thur, and 3 on fri. So this weeked we had the Kirkwood open show. And even though my group runs it my teacher let me and Katie show on Sunday. I rode a horse named Aba. So cute. Anyway on got 2 1st, 2 2nd and a 5th. Pretty sweet huh? that horse made me look really good. So hopefully my mom is coming next weekend . I need her. Somebody sane. My best friend here, has started choosing the boyfriend over her friends. I asked for 1 little thing and she "could leave him" Whatever. So much for getting to hang out with her after school and such. Other people are noticing it to. Anyway, My classes are really awesome except 3, but your always going to have those few classes that screw everything up. Anyway this is all.
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-13T19:57:00

2005-01-14T02:03:29Z

You Are 29 Years Old

29

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

So everyone's been asking me if there is anything wrong. I must be acting different since I came home. There is just a lot on my mind and I'm just thinking. Also I'm trying really hard in this one class already cause it could give me some awesome opportunites. Anyway a fried is selling his horse. I like this horse a lot. So I'm thinking about talking to my parents about buying him. He said he would give me 2 weeks to decide. And one of my teachers was asking if some people would like to bored at her barn and work off the board instead of paying it off. So I think that would work out with this horse wonderfully. Well I'm gonna go.
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-09T18:52:00

2005-01-10T00:59:07Z

Back in Iowa. WOOO. So friday I got back and stopped at the barn to see of Katie was there, but she wasn't so I came home unloaded my stuff and unpacked. Then called Katie and Matt and we went and got Katie's Belly button re-peired. The peircing guy was funny. Then we rented a couple movies, and Adam calls matt to see if he can help him drag sand out of the arena. There was a quarter horse show this weekend and they were bitching that the sand was too deep. So me and Katie talked about our break while matt helped Adam. Actually Adam parked his tractor and came and talked to us while Matt did all the work. Then we went back to Matts and watched Dawn of the Dead. Good movie, but frustrating. Then we tried to fall asleep, but Matt accidently tickled me and them me and Katie couldn't stop laughing. So we didn't end up going to sleep till like 4:30 and Matt had to get up at 6 to go to work. So me and Katie stayed in bed for awhile and then I came home and showered and went to Walmart and then ran over to school to go buy my books, but they weren't open so I hung out with Katie and the barn. Then I went back to Matts to watch Troy. GOOOD MOVIE. Then spent the night at my Grandparents. Now I'm back home and such. So classes start back up tomorrow. YEAYYYYYYY!!! Ok this is all
ADria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-06T23:00:00

2005-01-07T05:05:57Z

SO today I packed. I was kinda sad, but excited. WEnt to the explorers meeting today. We are going to Florida again this year. We do this trip every other year. But it feels like we just got back. I'm excited though. So after the meeting, I went out with Brittany from Oswego, and Nick G. I missed them. They are hilarious. We all want to be on the same boat for Florida, I hope we all are. That would be hilarious.
I got my pictures back from New Years. Well I would like to thank sam for Taking a picture of someone, or your ass. That was a big surprise while I was flipping through the pics.
Lena~Sorry I didn't get to show you the pics, a couple of them are on the myspace website, but there are more. I'll be sure to bring them back next time I come home. I didn't have a car all day today. SO yeah.
Alright this is all. Goodbye Y-town again.
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-05T20:14:00

2005-01-06T02:18:10Z

Yo, I'm at Lena's. We went to Walmart and got yarn and food. Woooooooo. I'm waiting for lena to get off her ass so we can dye her hair and such. My father is mad at me for going out in the snow. Go figure. So I scared to go home and get yelled at. It's not my fault they don't plow the roads. BLAHHHHH!!!!
I have to pack and clean my room tomorrow. I hate packing then having to unpack 3 hours later, and then packing again to go to my g-parents for 3 weeks. Anyway I forgot what I was going to type. SO this is all
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2005-01-04T16:12:00

2005-01-04T22:19:43Z

So, yeah, I go back to Iowa on Friday. I'm kinda excited, kinda not. I missed my friends here, so it was awesome to see them, and I'm going to miss them again when I leave. But I also miss my friends in Iowa too. So it will be awesome to see them. So i'm stuck in the middle of whether or not I'm going to be happy when I get back to school. BUt I love school and actually can't wait to learn more about those wonderful creatures called horses. But I love my friends. I've come to realize that I haven't kept in touch with a lot of people I used to hang out with. So I've got Those few good friends left, and I'm happy with that. I don't need 40 billion friends to have fun. I love being around those people, you know who you are, that will always make me laugh, and be there when I need them, and I will always be there for them. Does this make sense? I hope soooooo. Anyway on to what I did today...
Got up, and dressed. Katie and Matt called so I talk to them for a while them I waited and waited and waited for my brother so we could take a mattress over to the thrift store. Turns out they weren't taking anymore donations today. But I left some clothes anyway. It was only 4 things. So then we went to the mall and Corey traded in his PS2 for an X Box. WOOOT. And I returned something my mom bought for me for Christmas. It was from New York and Company. So I walk in and get store credit for the return item and am looking around trying to find something to buy with this store credit. Turns out NY and Co is not my store. It's too bright and perky. Lot of Pink Cardigans and such. So I bought a black skirt cause I gave all of mine to Good Will. It's cute so I'm happy. Then Me and Corey headed back to Y-town and I got Taco Bell and then we came home. I have Horseback Riding tonight. Last time I get to see Skittle before I leave. Sad, I hope I get to ride her. If she already was riddin, I'll hop on bareback and not do a lot. Alright well that's all for my very interesting day. HA
ADria

New Years...

2005-01-03T00:59:08Z

New Year's was crazy. Fun though. I saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a while. I missed people so it was good that everyone was there. I even saw Jenny. But somewhere in the night she disappeared. We were wondering what happened to her on the way home. But it was fun to seen everyone.

I got really drunk. I hate how I act when I get that way. I act like a moron and I'm not... I don't think... So why do I do it. I don't know. I just don't know when to quit. Well then I beat myself up over the stupid shit I did. I guess I'm too self consious about it. So sorry to everyone for my retardedness!!! llakdjlkasjdfisjdfk

The IIIIIDDDDDIIIIIOOOOOTTTT

BLAHHHHHH

2004-12-31T00:20:16Z

So I haven't updated for a long time. Well long for me. My dad was fixing and installing a bunch of stuff on our computer. I'm so happy it's fixed, cause what Corey did made me want to throw this thing out the window. Anyway, Christmas was good. I only need to return one thing and exchange something for a different color. So that is good. My grandparents had gone to Florida sometime before Thankgiving and they took pictures of the place they usually stay, and then my families place that live down there. Anyway The damage was pretty extensive at the "resort" you could say it was. THey will probably have to knock down the entire building and rebuild. Cause the structural damage was really bad. And the amount of sand that they scooped out of the parking lot. THere was a lot. It was pretty cool to see that. I know my great Aunts house had a tree fall on it and they might have to rebuild, but they didn't have a picture for that. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, it was the hurrican(s) that happened not to long ago.
Anyway, I got my belly button pierced yesterday. Whitney knew the guy that owned the place and so I got it for 20 bucks. Normally I probably would of gone some place I've heard about, but whitney got her's down there. So anyway the guy was really nice, and it was really clean, so it's good. I have a ring in right now, I can't wait to put in a bar bell. Tomorrow, I'm goin out with lena for New Year's. Hangin out with her is alway fun and I haven't gotten to hang out with her a lot for a while. So yay!!!! Alright this is all.
Adria

Merry Christmas...

2004-12-25T01:42:22Z

I'm full. Mom made dinner and it was tasty. We went shopping yesterday, and mom bought me pants and a shirt. Why I don't know, since Christmas is tomorrow. But that was fun... not... traffic was horrible and people were rude. GRRRR! Went out with Lena on Wednesday night. We watched Napoleon Dynamite. It was ridiculously funny, i guess is how I would put it. Weird, but FUnny. Matt and Katie called me today. They played a mean trick on me. Matt calls and goes, Adria are you sitting down. I think you need to sit down and then proceeds to tell me in a crying voice that Katie has gotten into an accident and blah blah blah. Then they both start laughing. I hung up on them. I had started shaking and such, and almost ready to cry, and they start laughing. I was pissed. They called back and were laughing. That very nice. So I talked to them for a while. And then me and mom watched a movie, got ready to go to church. I hate sitting in those chairs they have. They are wooden chairs and they are so close together, on the sides and for your legs. Anyway my knees can't take that, and so when we got up, me knee popped out of place. It was painful. Anyway we are off to Iowa tomorrow for Christmas and will be back on Sunday. Soo see ya lata!
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-22T13:13:00

2004-12-22T19:21:13Z

So I'm bored. What's new. Lena is supposed to call me when she gets off of work. I'm excited to see her. I haven't in along time. So My mom just got back from Iowa today and there is nothing to do. Tomorrow She wants to go shopping, but that's pointless cause I have no money. But I guess I'll go and keep her company. I finally got to see Skittles last night. I missed her. She's soo fuzzy. Her leg hair is soo long I could brush it. Sounds gross but she's a horse. So I pissed about her stall. It's messy as hell. I was walking in it and it sloshed all the way around. It's obvious they havent been doing a good job on cleaning it. And I have no money to go buy my own shavings and clean it out myself. So I bitched to the instructor that was there last night, but I don't think she cared. So I was thinking last night as Kelly was telling me about her plans for New Year's. I have nothing to do. I'm hoping something will come up, there is still time. But if not, I guess I'll hang with the parents. BOOOO!! ANyway Whitney wants me to get my belly button pierced. She know's I've been wanting to I'm just too much of a wuss. So She she could help me get it down for like 20 bucks. Which would be awesome, but Does it mean this place is nasty. I'll have to check it out. I'd have to get it done over break, because riding horse with your belly pierced could be painful. Alright I'm done talking about nothing.
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-21T14:12:00

2004-12-21T20:21:43Z

Well the past couple of days have been really boring. I just basically sat around all day yesterday. I went and got Kelly and Katie and my dad's christmas presents and then found out later that someone is getting a present and so now I have to go find something for them. But it's cool. I got my dad this thing for his red car and I told Corey about it and he goes, dad selling the red car. Well that sucks theis thing is alrdeady wrapped and the tags taken off. So I guess he'll have to find some other use for it. Anyway, last night I went out with Whitney, we went to Chili's and we talked and joked around. THen we got back to her house and she finds out that her Grandpa pasted away. So I just hung around with her and tried to make her feel better, but that's hard to do when someone you love dies. So I left there around 12:30 or so. I slept in again. Then Katie called, so I chatted with her and matt for a while. And now I'm here, still in my pj's and feeling kinda nasty. I get to see Skittles Tonight. I'm excited. I miss my girl. ANd Snickers is bothering me. SHe's really cuddly. I misssed this. Alright, I'm going to go change and get something to eat. IF anyone wants to hang out at all this week give me a call. My cell is on now. YEAY!!! 630 234 6546
Adria

HOME...

2004-12-19T23:37:58Z

I'm finally home. As much as I wanted to come home, the day I left, I stopped by the barn to say bye to Katie and I didn't want to leave. Kristen was there and we were joking around and such. But I am excited to see my friends here again. Kelly said that there was a party tonight but she hasn't called me yet, I think she's at work or something, so I'll just wait. My dad has been bugging the hell out of me, and tells me hes tired of hearing me say go away and stop. Well the stop bothering me and I'll stop saying it. DUH!! So I get back from Iowa and then my mom goes to Iowa. Funny huh? She's going shopping with my grandma. So the point of this story is we had friends over last night so she asked me to vacuum the hard floors and Corey to do the Carpet. Well guess what he did, he left and told my dad that I said I would do it for him. Well I didn't say anything like that. I'm back for one day and he's lying to my parents and trying to get me in trouble. WOW, I feel apprciated. Me and my dad watched this movie this morning called Requist of or for a Dream, or something like that. It was about 2 drug dealers and how one gets hooked and it shows you what happens, it was a good movie, but very depressing. So I was all sad for a while. Made you think... Anyway this is all
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-15T14:57:00

2004-12-15T21:06:14Z

OK, so today was good. I had my riding final and my horse is gay, but she did awesome and we got an A-!! Woot. I wasn't expecting her to be so good, cause I had had her inside for like 4 hours, but she was good, wait for the first time she was awesome. Calm and not anticipating my moves. It was great.
Ok so Adam has stopped persuing me. He still likes me, but he asked my friend Matt if he honestly had a chance with me, and Matt says ever so bluntly NO!! If she liked you like that at all she would of done something about it by now. HAAAAHAHAH!! I love him.
Something not soo good. I might get an incomplete in mechanics. Cause He schedualed my last drive at one, and I didn't get totally down with Hope till like 1:15, and if we can't find a time tomorrow, Then I get an incomplete. GOD DAMN. Like I want to have that on me records. BLAH. But hopefully I will be able to finish the class next semester. X your fingers. I don't want that sitting. Alright this is all
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-11T19:44:00

2004-12-12T01:59:12Z

So today was interesting. I have to get some stuff out. Katie has a couple of boys that like her and she was asked by them to choose one. Well she doesn't know what to do, this has been goin on for a while. Well I'm friends with both these boys, and Katie. Well Matt, the one that we go to school with that likes her, called me today and totally opened up to me. We talked for about an hour. He told me about some stuff that has happened to him in the past that he has barley told anybody, to explain why he is the way he is. I cried. He doesn' know I was, but my god. I've never had anybody tell me this kind of stuff before, I guess nobody around me has had all this shit happen to them in 21 years of life. I can't believe he is the way he is with all of this stuff. Soo nice and caring. It made me feel trusted, cause he has trust issues, and made me feel like he really does care about a lot of everything, and he wants me to be part of that. And of course he's told Katie, but still, I don't think I will respect anyone more then I respect him right now. Why do I have to be in the middle. And I found out that Katie kissed the other guy, "REd" last night. I mean kisssssed him. Matt knows it, he just doesn't want to admit it, or he doesn't know how extensive it was. Well now I feel bad for Matt and Red, because now if she does choose Matt, Red will be completely crushed, and if she chooses, Red, Matt, I don't think, will be able to stand that. I'm caught in the middle. And if she chooses matt, I will probably never be able to talk to Red again, cause I hang out with him with Katie most of the time. And REd is soo funny, and nice. There both great, I don't know how to support Katie in this.
Sorry this is boring..
Well then there is this guy Jessie at school and he's friends with Adam, well Jessie and I were flirting a lot on family fun night, and Adam kept calling Katie over, and saying she like Jessie doesn't she, why... blah blah blah. Well dude, if I say I'm not ready for a relationship with you, I'm not going to turn around and date someone else. And school is too important to me to fuck it up by having a relationship. So FUCK OFFFFFFFFF!!!!! I'm going to see Quincey and Adam's mom's house tomorrow, and now I want to see Quincey but I don't wanna talk to him at all. GOD, I want Christmas break to come, so I can run away from everything thats happening right now. Not that I wanna leave my friends in the dust, but I need to clear my head and be able to think clearly. Alright I wasn't expecting this to be soo long. I'm sorry.
ADria

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-10T16:35:00

2004-12-10T22:45:38Z

Blah, I'm exhausted. We had a 1 o'clock maddenss on wednesday and I was there till 12:30 and then came home showered and studied some. Actually didn't fall asleep till like 2. Then I had to get up at 5 to go ride and such. Then last night we had a fundraiser and I was at school all day then for that till 8:30. Came home studied for a final and another regular test. And fell asleep about 11. Then I was school all day. We had our written final in riding and I finished my production stuff. Last day or I would of failed and had to take it over next year. But I got everything turned in and done. WOOOOOOTTTTTT!! So next week I have finals
1 monday
0 tuesday
2 wednesday
2 thursday.
Then I'm totally done with this semester and I'm going to head home saturday morningish for entire time I have off. I can't wait. I might hang out with Katie when we come back for christmas day. But other then that I'm home. Wooo.Alright this all
Adria.

luckystar85 @ 2004-12-08T14:50:00

2004-12-08T20:59:03Z

Yesterday was Katies Birthday. I almost forgot. But when I saw her I had just got done riding and it a horrible ride. My horse is retarted. Anyway, she didn't have a very good birthday, I had no money to get her anything, and I felt horrible cause she gave me 20 bucks on mine. So I'm going to take her out once I find out if I have enough money in my account. So anyway the teacher had an extra practice yesterday for the riding final, and then we watched movies in the class room on the big screen. Which is test a projetor screen, but it worked. We watched 50 first Dates. Funny Movie!! We ate pizza and cake, cake before pizza though, that's the way to do it. Then after the movie we joked around, I haven't laughed that hard for a while, and it was stuff I was doing, and then a couple of jokes someone told and a some other random things. Katie didn't have the best Birthday other then that part. People were being dicks. The usual drama that has been happening at Kirkwood. So her "Boy Friend" and I did the best we could to make her have somewhat of a good birthday.
Well the puppy is doing good. We haven't had any more accendents yet. So that's a plus. It sucks letting her outside in the morning though. I'm always supper cold in the morning after I get out of bed, and then having to stand out side till the dog pees, kinda sucks. But oh Well. Alright I've got some cleaning and homework to finish.
Adria

huhhhhhhhhhh

2004-12-07T02:23:12Z

Sooo, I'm dog sitting this week. I brought my friends dog home cause she is going out of town with her mom. This dog is adorable. She is sitting in my lap right now trying to lick my face. SOOO cute. Anyway... So I'm lost and confused. And I want to know what to do with myself. I don't like pressure. i think my problem is I worry about other people and how they are feeling, more then I worry about myself and my problems. And now I was called selfish cause I needed to get something done and couldn't help someone else with something. Wrong... I'm sorry, but I need to pass the damn class too... I swear I can only count on like 2 people in my school. And then when someone likes you and you don't share the same feelings, I don't think that selfish, and I think its reasonable. Why would I want to start something I'm not....... feeling I guess you could say. It would be selfish to start something and then decide I don't want it. I'm ready for a break. I will miss a couple of people over break, a lot, but I really just want to go home and have nothing to worry about.

So I feel horrible for not being able to get a job and pay my own way through school. Why I don't know, cause most college kids love there parents paying for them. But me, I'm trying to do this on my own. I think that's my problem, I'm a lone in this, but I'm really not. So I was able to pay for my first semester of college and able to get half way through the semester without asking for money, I'm soo proud of that. But now what, I'm once I pay my tuition I'm broke. My dad gave me 600 to help pay, but that only leave me 100 dollars or less left. I will be asking for more money soon. That makes me feel horrible, cause they are also helping corey pay for school, and we don't have as much money as we used too. I don't know. I'm sure this makes no sense. But I wish I could pay for myself. It makes me feel, honest and independent. I don't know this is all
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-11-29T19:35:00

2004-11-30T01:35:42Z

I hate it here. Not school, my aunts. Someone please come recue me....

luckystar85 @ 2004-11-27T21:48:00

2004-11-28T04:01:52Z

OK today sucked ass. I took Quincey away today. It was sad. I got there and she was sooo scared, tail inbetween the legs and was hiding behind be and such. So I finally left and went over to my grandparents and cried on my grandma's shoulder, and then she offered me a beer. Which I thought was amusing. I had to say no though, cause I had chores and had to drive. So they took me out to lunch and such. It was good, I ate a lot. Then I headed off to chores and was going to help Kayla with round bails, but found out just before I headed outside that Quincey got away for my friends mom, and they couldn't catch her. So I had to drive back up to North Liberty to catch her. She saw me and came bounding towards me. God I don't want to give her up. So I left again, and they lady had bought a coke chain for her so she can't slip out of the colar again. So now I had to leave her twice, and I'm tring soo hard not to cry infront of everyone. So we get to chores late, and my friend "turtle" comes in all not happy cause she had to help with round bails and shite. I felt soo bad, cause that was my job, and I blew it. So apolgized to her, once she calmed down, and she apologized to me for getting angry, and now we're cool. So chores took a little longer to do. We went out to check the herd, and it's fucking freezing out, cause the sun was going down, and the wind was blowing. Plus the front of the pasture was all muddy and gross. So we're trying to not fall and hide from the wind. I did just get some good news though, something that is hard to expalin so I'm not going to. But I feel better. I told my mom I'm probably going home next weekend, and she told me I couldn't. Well too bad, cause I need to see my friends and just relax for a while. Break was supposed to be my relaxing time, but that didn't happen. I can't wait for Christmas break. only, what, 20 days left. Woot. but that means finals. I better get my act together. Alright this is all
Adria

luckystar85 @ 2004-11-25T20:13:00

2004-11-26T02:19:08Z

So my parents could't come last night cause it was snowing, and the roads were bad. So they came this morning. I only got to see them for like 4 hours, cause I had to leave for chores and they were gone by the time I got back. So I was sad. I miss my parents. I wish I could of gone home with them this weekend. That would of been awesome. Stupid chore week. Atleast it's easy though. i only have to clean out 2 stalls and such. So it's good. Chin the Chincilla is running around in his cage I think I might let him out for a min. Ok hes' out and happy now. Yay I get to pick up his turds now. hahaha. So anyway, I ate a lot today. I missed that home cooked meal shite. YAY for good food. So sunday is the John Travolta special on USA. I'm def watching that. He's sexy as hell. I'm excited for that. Something to look forward to.
Amy~ I think I will be able to come back for your birthday. It will be good. I might just follow my parents home that saturday. So hopefully see you then. Alright i think this is all.
ADria

luckystar85 @ 2004-11-22T20:30:00

2004-11-23T02:51:10Z

So I took Quincey to school today. I don't think katie taking her is going to work out. Kiser was fine with her, but who knows when he's at his house where he's teritorial.
So I get home tonight, and find out that my grandpa was in the hospital. They thought he had a heart attack, but turns out that it's probably just his gal bladder acting up. Thank God. I was freaking. So I called my mom, before I knew it wasn't serious. And she was going to head out here. This makes me a bad person, I wanted grandpa to be not that ok, so my mom would come out. I'm horrible. I didn't want him like critical, just not as ok as he is. I'm a horrible person. I hate me sometimes. I'm awful. Here's another reason why, I don't know if this makes me bad, but there's this guy that likes me at school. He doesn't go there he works there as a "stable hand" I guess you can say. But he's totally not my type, and I can't stand to be around him, cause he tries to control everything, cause he did this program, and he's always telling what to do as I'm doing it. BUt anyway, he keeps telling Katie how much he likes me and how he wants to ask me to do something, but I just don't want to. I mean he also still cries over his ex girlfriend, why would I want to be the rebound girl no thanks. Not to metions he likes like every girl he ever talks to. But anyway I ignore him and I avoid being perverted around hime, as I am sometimes, but he doesn't get the hint. I don't know what to do. He wont talk to me about it so I'm not just going to walk up to him and be like I don't like you. I hate this. and even Katie has said, she's not interested. Give it up. I don't know why I wrote that, but it's bothering me. It's been going on forever. grrr. He's like a puppy dog. Anyway. This is all. I'm stupid. Why did i write this. I'm soo confused
Adria